

Thank you all for the genuine wishes about international womans day today, I am again really grateful to have you all here in this time! β€οΈ Now time to share with you what's going on in my life, I really started to feel that my OnlyFans page is turning into a diary which is quite engaging for me and also a great opportunity to structure my thoughts and experiences so that it all makes sense now or later when I read it. Sadly my brother and mom have decided to cross to Poland and potentially go to the Netherlands where my mom has a close friend who will help her with finding work at least for the duriation of the war. Who knows if we can live normally again here in Ukraine...My brother is just 9 y.o. and he will have to start school there, no idea if there are Ukrainian schools, might be a better option for the first few months until he learns some Dutch. Their movinf makes me extremely unhappy because I am very close with both of them and I will be left here with my sister and her husband and their 7 y.o. kid. You may wonder why I am sad with them? I love my sister but she is a total mess, very chaotic, undisciplined and even a little bit egocentric. In our last few days in Kiev she called me every day complaining that they are in a heavy bombing area and I accepted her and her family to stay with us in the basement. Helped with food and all the other necessities which I am totally fine with. What makes me really angry is that her little kid is very rude, undisciplined and they let him like that whithout reprimands and even remarks. If it was just me on my own I was going to shut myself in a room or just leave but I am with a little baby that requires calm environment and nourishment, physical and emotional. I can even see that her little one does everything on purpose and in spite of my remarks, runs in all rooms, pushes the baby crib, plays cartoons loud and Alyona does not say a single word... Now the cottage owner asked for an additional payment because when we booked we really didn't want them here, they came a day later and we hoped it will be temporary...But the story becomes even more interesting, she and her husband decided they want to drink vodka in a time when all men are fighting and all women are volunteers and when alcohol is even forbidden! They want to drink vodka and make bbq π€¦ββοΈ Am I dreaming I ask myself?? And the crazy ones even found an old lady in the village who sold them vodka... I cry every hour because of them and the stress they cause but at the same time their presence makes me feel physically protected. I don't want to leave Ukraine because I want to continue helping in the war effort and my kid's father is in Ukraine and I know that his motivation will wane if he learns the baby left the country. Of course if bombing starts here I may be force d to leave but for now being in the resistance give me so much meaning and motivation! πΊπ¦πͺ Sorry for the long writing and thank you if you read till the end! I needed to share that and take it out, hope I did not burden your mind! β€οΈ