A little heart to heart: I've been online as a public figu..
Added 2023-01-03 23:17:18 +0000 UTCA little heart to heart:
I've been online as a public figure since 18, sharing my every second of every day. And I have never hated it. I genuinely love sharing who I am as a person and finding things in common with new internet friends. I've always been as open and honest as much as I can be with you. As someone who is naturally shy, I can't really explain how it makes me feel to do the daring thing of posting nudies or making a video or even just talking to ppl because I truly am an awkward person haha.
But the last few years I haven't exactly been the same. I know I've been quieter with myself... sometimes I go weeks without posting and that kind of plays into the fact that I don't like to film unless I'm 100% happy so that I'm 100% there. But I have also found a sort of peace in not posting as much. It's like I crammed in all the off days I never let myself take before. I used the time to heal and self-reflect and I've been finding myself missing creating and being online as much as I used to be.
And I think I needed to let myself get to that point again... of missing being alive on the interwebs and feeling the itch to make this new vid or that. I'm working my way back into it, and I hope you stick around long enough to see me at my top self again. And from the bottom of my heart... than you for sticking around while I've been at my lowest <3
