I’m a woman on a mission! My percentage has dropped dramatically on Onlyfans as has my fan count. Let’s build my account back up together! If you could, can you please like as many posts as you can? It helps a lot and I can send you a goodie when you’re done x
2021-05-02 06:38:20 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey babe, whatcha doing back there?
2021-05-01 21:59:12 +0000 UTC View Post
I really wanted to post this as a treat to my rebillers but I’m just so grateful to everyone for being here! 🧡
2021-05-01 08:54:38 +0000 UTC View Post
Let’s get down to business!*
(Finish my assignments that are so friggin hard!)
I’m officially back! Thank you everyone who has stuck around and been incredibly patient with me! I truly appreciate you!
2021-05-01 01:54:20 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m excited to send you the video @oooh_amber and I made for you with @bigvin.
Tip $5 if you want to see the 16 still photos of Harley Quinn and Poison Ivy!
Do you like Harley Quinn and Poison Ivy? A dirty trailer of my upcoming clip with @oooh_amber filmed by @bigvin. Releasing on the day I’m back!
2021-04-28 08:39:06 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m shutting down my Onlyfans temporarily.
Getting into online sex work was supposed to be a personal challenge as it was the only form of sexuality I had yet to explore. I was excited to be surrounded by supportive and loving fans who’d love to watch me unleash my wild side.
And it worked! Before I had never taken a photo with my legs opened. Now I can take pussy pics. I was even getting more comfortable with sharing my face.
In reality, the mechanics of making porn is a bit complicated - but still a fun challenge! Except when it involves other people and they press their expectations onto you about what your fans want to see and what you should be doing. I don’t want to argue. I just want to create
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I crave support and acceptance. Deprive me of these things and I crumble into a heap. There was no real financial incentive for making an OF, especially at the tail end of the COVID pandemic. I just wanted to learn more about myself. I didn’t want tension or stress. But I got a lot of that, when trying to film when my partner, from expectations from my clients, from professional expectations from myself.
I wanted to strengthen my ideals of dignity, not have it tarnished & challenged by strangers. I wanted to grow in a positive space, where I was my only competition. I feel this idealistic view has been crushed by the hammer of reality. It was served to me in the form of a review.
The review of my Onlyfans wasn’t a negative one. In fact, it was good! But it resurfaced feelings about reviews I long buried. I wish the person just spoke to me about his intentions. I feel a lot of the sad feelings I feel now could have been avoided with a bit of consideration.
I guess he doesn’t owe me anything. But I don’t see the point in reviews, the cost value doesn’t make sense. He wrote the review for himself, at the expense of my feelings. When I asked if he was interested in hearing my feelings he said yes & when I explained, he was disgusted. He made it sound like I should be grateful and that I was acting entitled.
My points were valid and well articulated. They never attacked his character, but focused on the review culture, my safety and future. In his response, he focused on my character, and he extrapolated many theories such as me being man hating or a lazy worker. It saddened me.
Onlyfans was supposed to be fun & sexy. I have never lied to my fans about my intentions & factors influencing performance. It wasn’t supposed to be something distilled for consumerism & economics fonder, where my value is judged against another’s. That takes away the joy.
Seeing as I have no financial obligation to stick to my Onlyfans & seeing how I’m being judged unnecessarily, I just don’t see the point in this method of exploring my sexuality. What do I gain out of it? What makes it worth my time? Why are men so angry at me when I adore them?
I don’t want to make a permanent decision when feeling emotional, and I especially don’t want to make a decision because one person was unkind, I’m not that precious.
But it is a bit of a wake up call. I’m an idealistic person. I assume the best in everyone. I trust everyone. I want to believe in the good, I want to inspire love, I want to spoil people with affection.
I’m no stranger to negative experiences in this industry. I’m not a naive flower who’s only just realised how cruel the industry can be. I know the nature of the beast. There’s no cotton on my eyes but I’d carved and cultivated a wonderful corner in the industry of love, support & safety.
I feel it’s been taken away from me & I’m vulnerable again. This experience has me putting my guard up. It’s stifled my creativity. I feel more dread than excitement. It’s made me question my ambitions & strategy. I wonder what’s the best way to respect and honour myself.
I need time to figure it out.
For these reasons I’ll be putting a pause to my Onlyfans. It might be a few days before I get over it. It may be weeks. Maybe months. Maybe never.
But for now, only sub if you’re interested in my archives. They’ll be nothing new to see for now.
If you feel you’ve been financially robbed with my time off, please consider talking to me before feeling angry. There are ways I can make it up to you. I just want this space to be filled with peace. Allow me to give that to you. 💓
Want me to drop the blanket? Convince me
2021-04-08 06:36:27 +0000 UTC View Post
I like this angle. Do you like this angle?
2021-04-07 05:27:49 +0000 UTC View PostThere’s more to the story but I ran out of time. I might write a blog post about it (if I have time because I have two assessments due) but to sum up how I feel, please talk to me if you want to review me. Not so I can guide the review but so I can protect myself from some of the nasties associated with it
2021-04-07 00:45:25 +0000 UTC View PostDon’t forget I’ll be going live at 9pm tonight AEST!
Right after my boxing class!
I’ll be talking about how to improve your sex life and I’ll be incorporating a skull of my drink, fingering and I’ll try to make myself squirt!
If you want me to do something, you can always tip now and I’ll send you the recording later xx
I go camping with you and I’m dressed like this! What do you do?!
2021-04-06 00:13:25 +0000 UTC View Post
My cats missed me over the weekend. Did you too?
2021-04-05 07:28:17 +0000 UTC View Post
Forgive me! I’ve been camping for the long weekend and didn’t realise there would be no reception. I have a patch but please don’t expect to hear from me again until tomorrow! Xx
2021-04-04 03:48:13 +0000 UTC View Post
Part two thanks to my fans 😇😇😇
2021-04-02 04:47:26 +0000 UTC View Post
You have a certain somebodies to thank for this... more later on in the day
2021-04-01 23:03:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Now, if you want to see me drop the lingerie, you’ll need to show me some love
2021-04-01 03:49:07 +0000 UTC View Post
Look at my next post if you want me for a surprise
2021-04-01 03:48:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Look at my next post if you want me to turn around
2021-04-01 03:47:19 +0000 UTC View PostDon’t forget to raise that hip and straight that leg!
2021-03-31 01:46:55 +0000 UTC View Post
My industrial photo set is finally fully edited and live!. 134 images of me galvanting naked in an abandoned factory. You can view it all for $10
2021-03-31 00:51:06 +0000 UTC View PostYou vote! My live show needs to be reorganised for sometime next week. When? Remember you can tip in advance and I will send you the recording. Also remember you vote has more weight the more you’ve financially supported me here xx
$3
Flash ass/boobs
Squeeze boobs/ass
Change camera angle or pose
Spank (+$3 for harder)
Ask a general question about topic
Show cat
$5
Show feet
Make a recommendation for further study on topic
$10
Take off tops (10 mins)
Take off bottoms (10 mins)
Ask a specific question about Estelle or about your situation
Skull drink
$20
Fingering
$30
Asshole closeup
Naked (15 mins)
Random sex toy
$50
Oil show
Hitachi orgasm
Blowjob with dildo
Change outfit
$100
Anal
Double penetration
Attempt to squirt
Use dildo
I miss my short hair a lot sometimes :(
2021-03-30 02:34:11 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m sorry, but today is a bad day.
I’ve been rushed off to a friends aid and I doubt I’ll be able to come back in good spirits for tonight’s live show.
Please allow me time to reconsider what when might be a good time to reschedule. I love you and thank you for your understanding xx
I got all dressed up for you daddy! Or did you want me to dress down?? 🤔🤔🤔
2021-03-28 02:02:30 +0000 UTC View Post
Tip $10 if you want to see all 134 images of this photo set. Naked, grundy, edgy, exploring abandoned buildings, gritty and sultry.
2021-03-26 07:37:38 +0000 UTC View Post
