I’m awake nursing a hangover. Momma got a little lit last night out on the town. I have to say, I’m very overwhelmed right now & I really have no desire to drive up to Indy today, other than to see my friend. I have so much to work on, script wise. And I went mentally spiraling when my friend I’m meeting there at the convention said he acquired a sales table & to bring stuff to sell. Because I thought I was going to just get to stay in the room & work on my scripts.
Also, yesterday I realized I’ve lost track of my bank card. When I was coming back from Louisville on Thursday I think I left it in a gas pump. I was distracted because it started pouring down hard while I was pumping gas & the downpour was blowing under the awning & soaking me. I’m pretty sure I rushed back in the car to avoid it & to get on back the road cause it was storming like crazy.
I’ve been pretty absent minded in general lately. And obsessing about romance. Well, one man in particular that isn’t matching my energy. It makes me feel like I’m always going to be alone. I keep going for people that are unavailable.
Let’s see… The last 3 people I’ve fallen for were:
1. Living in another country. Clinically depressed? Lol I just want to be in love. He’s been through a lot lately, but now he’s barely responding & I feel silly thinking I could have a life with him when I’ve never even kissed him. WOW LOL.
2. A completely unhinged woman. Who I tried to help in multiple ways but thought I was out to get her instead of help her. I honestly believe she is straight, but I was fine with that. I just wanted a friend who I could help, who’s beauty I could enjoy quietly. But she completely lost it on me & accused me of this crazy shit. I met her in the “indie horror” community, who I believe I’m getting a little comfortable with lately… Which led to this.
3. The guy from Texas, who I lost my mind over last year. I’m literally still getting over it. He led me on so hard & I was like… EATING it up. Then, when I was about to come home, I dropped work & everything to spend a little more time with him & he completely blew me off. I slept with him right before all that happened, because I know I saw him pulling back & I hoped it would get him to latch back on me… But obviously that didn’t work. Ha.
And I feel like I’m dropping that ball in my acting lately. Not being able to totally focus when I sit down to work on my lines. And then last week, my car was throwing this critical failure code. That when we looked it up, it said basically that if I continued to drive on it, it would destroy the car.
Well, when I took it to the shop, they thought the thing that the OTHER codes were pointing to, was recently replace. My friend had replaced some valve thing several months ago in my car & they were convinced he just didn’t reset the codes. So they reset them and NONE of the codes came back.
But my car literally died on the way back from my acting class last week at the gas station! It almost didn’t start when I filled the tank. I know something is very wrong with it & has been since last summer. But no mechanics can seem to figure it out.
This is super frustrating to me because I didn’t go to an acting gig in Pennsylvania last week because of that code it was throwing about the freaking “critical failure” & then they told me nothing was wrong with it. Lol wtf???? I hate flaking out on people & that’s what it feels like I did now since I didn’t drive there on account of a car that has “nothing wrong with it”. Uh… Okay.
Anyway, thank you for letting me vent. I’m not in a good mindset right now & I appreciate the support. I know not everyone here is interested in my personal life & just wants to see the skin. Ha! So if you read this far, give me a thumbs up emoji in the comments below. It would really make my day! 👍🏻
Have you seen this wet hole of mine lately??? I just dropped this solo scene lately & it’s MEGA *HOT*! Hmu in my DMs if you missed it. I’ll answer them eventually!
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What should I wear to the con tomorrow? I’m not *DOING* the con as a presenter or talent. I’m just attending. So I don’t feel the need to dress super sluttily, like I usually do for cons. Soft goth? Whimsy goth? 🤨
I need to be working on the script for my next project but instead I just keep running to the phone *LIKE THIS* & checking on which one of you lovelies unlocked my 4th of July scene! I made it on the fly yesterday & I’m just super excited about it. Ha! If you’ve joined since I sent it out, tip $30 & let me know what it’s for & I’ll send it right over!
Yay! I got the juice! This full 11 min FULL BLOODED ‘MURICAN scene of me using *2 TOYS TO CUM* is available now! Wanna see my “bald eagle”? Ready to “stand at attention”? I think you are, soldier! 🦅🇺🇸
This isn’t at all legal but I found *Debbie Does Demons” starring me, @bloodybeauty & @theemorrigannn on YouTube! 👀
I contacted the director, Donald, to make sure he knows & he contacted YouTube to get it taken down.
But until then, you should totally watch it!
The proofs for it are being held up by the distributor at the moment so I can’t get more copies to sell at this time… Which sucks cause I really love it!!!
Wanna call me? ☎️ Actually, I never answer the phone! Hahahaha! But for you, I just might! 😉
It’s mega late here. Or early, depending on how you look at it… It’s 5am! I’m finally getting tired for the evening. & I’m settling in. I have my Shakespeare class in Louisville tomorrow & plans to shoot to solo videos afterwards! I have a sweet as pie 4th of July solo video planned & I’m trying to think of another one to do?! Hmm. Ideas?
Wow! I never thought to look myself up on YouTube. There are like a ton of interviews with me! Wild!
Here’s one from a year ago it says… But this was definitely shot about two years ago when I first did the whole *Super Tromette* thing at conventions for Lloyd Kaufman & Troma. So cool! I’m gonna post them all!
More super hot & naughty amateur candids! Cause you’ve been asking for more of this style of photography mixed in with my more professional work!
I’ve been napping for the last two hours after getting lit on tequila after the mechanic basically told me I was wrong about my own car & there was nothing more they could do, which was bullshit. Like, I missed out on WHOLE BOOKING last weekend because my car was throwing a “critical failure” code & they said that since it didn’t throw for them after they reset the codes, it must not have been a problem & that when my friend replaced a tube in my car 6 months or more ago, that must have been the problem. I swear, I dunno if I’m bad at communication or if people just do not fucking listen.
Anyway, I’m about to get up & work on my lines for my Shakespeare class tomorrow & pack a few things for my man friend in Louisville to shoot some video content for me - for YOU! Ha. I hope to get my bottom knocked out proper too. We love that!
Anyway, I’ll update again before I whisk away back into dreamland in a few hours.
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Slowly getting out of bed today… I have plenty to do, but will it get done? Only tonight’s gods will tell.
I’ve been sort of dilly dallying the last two days since I missed filming this weekend. The thought of missing out, still making me sick. Also the heat has been crippling during the day but when the sun goes down, I seem to loose ALL of my energy. I really don’t like the summer for these reasons.
I might be looking at spending September in Austin to take some classes again. I spoke about it with my friend last night & it’s the month that works best for him. Gosh, I’d love to get out of this place for a bit again. 🤞 I can make it happen!!!
I worked with this incredible photographer when I was on vacation in Pheonix recently. He sent me some proofs but *I WANT THEM ALL*! 🤤
Great art takes time & artists (ahem like me) are notably slow. 😅 Speaking of which, I did put a dent in my DMs last night. Will work on them further this evening!
