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For those who didn't see, my writing on facials:
The Philosophy of the Facial: Why does cumming on a woman’s face turn men on?
What makes a facial sexy? What does this act of dispersing cum all over a woman’s face represent in the male eye that arouses him so greatly? It’s not that the act itself grants him more pleasure or that it makes the woman feel good — it’s an act that gains it’s value through symbolic means of the male imagination. Is the cum meant to defile her, or does it act as a nutrient used to sustain her? Sperm is the male life source that helps bring life into this earth — it can be perceived in this way as a vital form of energy. This is when the cum is seen as directly moving directly from the male to female body. The notion of cum as a substance that degrades and corrupts is when it is dispensed on the woman’s body itself. Where does the line begin from its nature to bring life and its nature to debase? Why does a man like both the idea of being an essential participant to the creation of human life and being the one to actively demean and blemish? One shouldn’t view men as inherently destructive or sadistic by virtue of him having these dual impulses. Humans, as a whole, are each genetically endowed with the capacity to cooperate and the ability to commit atrocious actions. We are no better than those we seek to condemn.
In this same vein, sexuality is neither good nor bad; it is simply the means evolution bestowed upon us to reproduce from one generation to the next. Evolution isn’t guided by moral intention (although we sometimes act as if it does), there’s no specific direction it moves toward (we like to assume that it progresses but that isn’t quite the case), it doesn’t choose what is most beneficial to the species as a whole; its sole concern is to replicate its genetic code and reproduce. That’s it. A lot of sexual preferences men and women have stem from our own evolution; men and women’s desires are sometimes seen as at odd’s with each other. In a lot of ways they are, but that’s why we utilize open-ended communication in discussing our various kinks and can come to a mutual consensus in regards to our personal boundaries and turn-ons. We aren’t guided strictly by our biological imperatives anymore, we can acknowledge the role they play in shaping what we desire sexually, but we are not beholden to those desires — we have the capacity to intellectualize these desires, discover their origins in our personal history, and make the final decision to act on them with a willing partner. I like to remind people not to feel shame about these feelings, and if you do, to verbalize what you’re experiencing and intellectualise them in a way that helps you view them with more clarity and self-compassion.
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I’m still bloated here but my digestion is improving slowly but surely. My eyes are so big, I have to sometimes squint in pictures so they don’t pop out but hi! I updated my website Katarinaishii.com to include my various social media profiles on the top for easy access.
Here’s me trying to understand what exactly attracts me to certain people, whether it is particular traits or something holistic and ineffable to describe. Let me know what your thoughts are.
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What do we like in a person?
If x, y, z are characteristics I like about a certain individual: I’d ask myself whether I’d still like the person if they lacked x, then y, then z, and we can continue this thought experiment with varying combinations of traits they theoretically possess or lack.
People, for the most part, judge an individual holistically, but in the end, their judgements can be reduced to some finite set of characteristics. It is intractable to come up with that set. We simply do not know it. Thus, holistic judgements are our inability to enumerate that set and compute it logically. Our brain does computations that we are unaware of in the same sense in which we recognize a facial expression "holistically" a la Wittgenstein, etc.
If D = ex & C = current object of affection
Let X = {things about D that I like}
Y = {things about D I don't like}
X' = {things about C I like}
Y' = {things about C I don't like}
It's sufficiently hard to know what's in each of those sets. It’s even harder to know what's in their intersections and complements.
I may be projecting traits or I may really want X,Y but is imagining X',Y'. I may be seeing an illusion of X',Y' so instead of X',Y' i'm seeing X'' = Projection(X) and Y'' = Projection(Y)
Overall, there will probably be reasonable commonality between X, X' and Y, Y'
Our preferences are largely shaped by genetic and environmental factors, hidden from immediate conscious perception. To comprehend the underlying mechanisms behind our various proclivities is a futile effort bound leading only to disappointment. A holistic assessment may be the only viable method in making these types of judgements, and even then there’s no chance of there being any clear certainty of its truth.
Or enumerate all that couldn’t be before via: Object.defineProperty(D, 'X', {enumerable: true}).
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I’m making BG content today. If it’s easy editing, I will have it up on my wall by tomorrow. This new camera was definitely a worth while investment. This month, there will be regular BG content weekly so I hope you all stick around. Guess what? I may have to just get a new phone because my tiktok was banned AGAIN. They gave me my old one back though - so it’s Katarinaishii99. I’ll have to make several backups — maybe have to get a new phone at this point. Reddit sucks but that has been the case for the last month or so. A bit demoralizing if you ask me, especially since I have new more diverse nudes. Thanks to everyone who is here still. It means a lot to me. I’m going to post a video of me playing World War Z: aftermath nude haha. Random I know. Just wanted to spice up the feed a bit. I’m pretty sad about my tiktok tbo since I leveled it up to 13k but that only took a week so I guess I can do it again if I find a way to not be shadow banned (may take a new phone unfortunately). Ah, why life be sucking. I had so many bills to pay, have to advertise more because it’s fucking dire
Whenever ordered the daddy/ riding custom, I can’t find you to resend video so please message me.
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Sorry today is a bit busy but I’m working on everything.
Hope you don’t mind me blessing your feed with some artistic nudes. Tip $5 if you want me to take more full body shots like this. Tip $10 for more ass shots.
Since I have a camera, my BG content will sometimes contain several angles of the same scene now which may look pretty cool. Excited to experiment and provide more diverse high quality content for you all.
What I ask if you is: don’t say anything specifically about my body. Just say I look great. Don’t go into detail about how it looks. I struggle with body dysmorphia and will spiral. Even if you see it as a compliment, my irrational brain won’t take it that way (this is not a rational phenomenon). Just say I look hot, sexy, cute, but don’t go into specifics about my size. You can say I’m petite because that’s a given I guess but that’s it. Sorry about that. It’s hard for me to expose myself like this, I’ve struggled with body image issues since the 7th grade (the first time I skipped a meal).
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I want to stream later today hopefully as well so check me out on Twitch. https://www.twitch.tv/katarinaishii
Roughly 6:30 or 7 maybe NYC time.
I will be making BG content this week so hopefully expect more of that in the close to near future. GGB collaborations in the works as well.
🔥 Tip $5 for more shower videos 🥰 I actually invested in camera gear and lighting (such as a tripod).
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Myth 2: Onlyfans girls have no self-respect
Most of the time, people will claim onlyfans girls (sex workers) have no self-respect or dignity, which justifies society’s mistreatment of them. Let’s take apart why exactly do OF creators lack self-respect, what does it mean for an individual to have it, and what are the perceived social implications of losing it. What makes sex work particularly undignified, compared to say, working long hours at a factory barely meeting minimum wage or an adjunct that has a full schedule of classes to teach and a long list of articles they must get publish in order to be considered for tenure?
They will say, being naked on camera is what makes them lack self-respect. My question in return is, why does nudity imply a loss of dignity? This all seems to be connected to the religious notion of the body being a “sacred temple” and the equally archaic idea of women needing to preserve their modesty in front of everyone besides her husband. What is considered to be dignified differs from culture to culture; a woman showing her hair or wearing her skirt above the knees in a Muslim household would be seen lacking self-respect or dignity but in our Western world, she would be labeled your average girl.
Their argument that OF girls lack dignity and self-respect is simply a boring reiteration of earlier religious arguments made against any action women took that moved them more in the direction of independence. OF girls lacking self-respect seems to be an ad hoc reasoning for explaining why they are against OF creators. Most of the time they fail to define what it means to lack dignity or respect and why this lack of these qualities cause them to be undeserving of basic human kindness (some have argued further).
What I see as their real problem:
Onlyfans makes women more independent; as a result, they are becoming less dependent on men. Men, in turn, feel threatened by this growing independence and are becoming alienated from this image they constructed of themselves as the “provider” or “breadwinner”.
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I will have more new BG content up soon, this month I will make a lot and most of it will be posted on the wall (sorry I need limited form of PPV to have some income) but most of it will go on the wall without a paywall. I have GGB collaborations in the works as well so I hope
you all stick with me to see all the stuff I’m working on. I know a lot of people volunteer to make content with me but it’s not just about that — I have to feel comfortable with you, safe, and you can’t be too big. I’m feeling a lot better so I can maybe try to take more solo shots and videos. If you’re struggling with money, feel free to talk to me and I can make accommodations for you.
I sometimes take videos just so I can take still images from them. It’s a much more efficient method of taking pictures of yourself. I am responding to messages regularly now and am in the process of going through customs (I’m making them longer and adding masturbation with real orgasm) — sorry I was in a low point and couldn’t even get myself out of bed half of the time but making myself get stuff done. I will finally actually go to the police precinct go pick up my expired passport they’ve held since April of last year. I’m planning to visit Vancouver so lmk if anyone lives there. My nick name actually has been Kat or kitty since childhood weirdly enough.
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For new subs, I wrote several myths people have about onlyfans , here’s one of them:
🌟 Myth: Subscribers are paying for friendship
People say that subscribers are paying to talk to me, as in our conversations and the friendships that have been developed from it are purely transactional and therefore not considered to be “real friendships”. I disagree. Subscribers are paying for Lewd Content, the fact that I engage in discussions with them is an act of free will on my part. Even then, I go beyond the monthly subscription price in conversation. I don’t want people to feel like they are paying to talk to me.
There is, of course, going to be financial motive on my part. (We all need money to live unfortunately). I can’t do this for free, even if I wanted to. Plus, even if I could do this for free, it probably wouldn’t be best to either — therapists don’t do what they do for free, I feel that when someone doesn’t pay for something, especially if it’s an ongoing or consistent interaction, they begin to value it less and always expect it, coming to even demand more.
It’s actually probably better that there is some transactional value mediating the relationship — they decide themselves whether the interaction is worth the subscription price and can freely choose to accept or decline. As we see with a lot of free pages, they tend to attract a lot of free loaders who feel entitled to a creator’s time and attention, more demanding with requests even if they themselves are not putting in any value that would make it worthwhile for the creator. People like free stuff, but for the most part, people usually feel better in the long term when there is some levél of investment involved. Satisfaction requires work and sacrifice.
People don’t seem to realize that the way they conceive of friendships is transactional too, they can’t say they aren’t. Maybe they’re not financially transactional but there’s still expected reciprocation on both ends. If you act as an emotionally supportive outlet to one person, you probably also expect they support you when it’s your time in need. If they fail to do this, you would most likely not call them a real friend, and the friendship would thereby be terminated.
How I look playing Battlefield. Tip $5 if you’d want to game with me on Steam 🥺🎮
Since I have a lot of new subscribers not from Reddit.
A Philosopher’s Analysis of Onlyfans
Porn is free, there’s plenty of it on the web, so why should anyone subscribe to a person’s onlyfans? There’s one core feature of onlyfans that I feel must be emphasized for the phenomenon to be properly understood — its parasocial nature
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For a person’s content to be worth subscribing to, they must provide to its user base a variety of things:
1) An experience that porn cannot provide.
2) An experience that isn’t easily attainable for free in the real world.
3) A highly marketable product that is both rare and high in scarcity value.
4) An experience that is overall attractive to its consumers and consistently dispenses high quality content on a regular basis while maintaining its affordability (its content doesn’t deprecate in quality and regularity among an increasing influx in subscribers).
5) An experience that does not leave the consumer feeling exploited in any way whether it be financially or emotionally.
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What are most men’s qualms with OnlyFans, what causes them to feel weird about subscribing to a woman’s content? Here are some of the reasons given by different men:
1) Porn is free, why should I pay for someone’s nudes?
2) They don’t want to objectify the woman in a purely sexual way.
3) It makes them feel weird to pay for porn.
4) They’re against OF because they feel it is inherently exploitative toward men and gives women a free reign advantage to make massive amounts of low-effort income.
5) It’s not genuine. They want to know the “real me” on a personal level. They don’t want to see themselves as a customer and actually “get to know me”.
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To respond to these concerns directly one by one:
1) I don’t see myself as a sex worker or someone who is simply providing porn / nudes on her OF. I do view myself as providing a service though, but I wouldn’t say it’s primarily sexual in nature. I do try to provide men an outlet for their sexual desires, but also their intellectual and emotional ones. My inbox is always available to my subscribers for deep philosophical conversations or simply emotional expression to a non-judgmental caring listener.
2) I feel equally as objectified for my personality and intellect as I do for my physical appearance. I allow myself to be objectified in these ways and am not made uncomfortable by this fact.
3) It’s not weird because I don’t view the transaction as men paying for porn but for an “experience”, or even them providing a monthly donation as a friend who cares for my well-being. I try to reduce feelings of guilt by demonstrating that I do care for my subscriber base as friends and will gladly m e e t up as friends for coffee if the stars align (obviously not for sex because this isn’t p r o s t i t u t i o n). I never feel “f o r c e d” or pressured to respond to messages or talk to people, I do it because I want to and deeply enjoy these stimulating discussions.
4) This take is just anti-sex work and anti-women, plain and simple. Women are only utilizing the market that men created and continue to sustain. It’s men who create this increased demand for sexual labor and it’s women who supply the product. What harm are women contributing by having a safe method of earning independent income?
5) What type of women make an OF account? Is there a distinct kind of “OF girl” that can easily be differentiated from what you’d call a “normal girl”? No, there isn’t. Women have many different reasons for making an OF account and are led toward this path by an unique array of individual circumstances, so no real generalizations can be made about common features that OF content creators supposedly share.
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OF feels less genuine to certain men because they’re paying for a service. They feel their relationship with me is commodified and that this prevents them from getting to know the “real me”. Let me be the first to tell you that there is no such thing as an Authentic self. I feel everyone plays a specific role catered to various situations and contexts. I do sometimes see “core features” of who I believe myself to be that have remained consistent over a long period of time but I still wouldn’t go as far as call that “authentically who I am” as a person. The individual you message over OF is as authentically “me” as when you m e e t me from any other setting whether it be in real life or from a basic dating app.
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I can’t say why other women make an OF, all I can do is speak for myself and why I made one. My initial reasons was due to financial struggle, I couldn’t find work and wanted to ease the burden off my aging parents who are both 70 years old. This platform is not making me rich but it is serving the important function of decreasing the amount of money I ask for from my parents which has been incredibly helpful.
As I continued to make content, I realized I was discovering different aspects of my religiously repressed sexuality on the way (I was having a sort of “sexual awakening” — I’m a late bloomer, I thought I was asexual for a majority of my life) and that I actually enjoyed doing this. OF gives me plenty of opportunity to be creative in my room decorations, developing ideas for photo or video shoots, collaboration with other content creators, and the erotic stories I
I felt you guys deserved some pussy shots. Tip $5 if you want to see more. I’m a bit shy about this so I hope you all appreciate it.
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All my other links https://beacons.ai/katarinaishii/
Working on customs now. I’m extending the time of the customs to 5 min (roughy ten min each) so and will add extra stuff to it to make it special and extra personalized. Who has ADHD? If you do, do you mind explaining why people with ADHD are always late or bad with tasks? It’s something hard to explain.
More annoyances: it says my account was suspended but I can still see my account. Someone decided to report my live for nudity even though there was most definitely no nudity. It was out of spite because I refused to flash them because why the fuck should I? What benefit would it serve me but to get banned and do all this work all over? I’m feeling sick so I’m laying in bed and depressed about all this bullshit. anyways, let’s hope that I get my account and all that.
Good news! I have a tripod now yay. Also will be making BG content on the weekend which I will post on my page behind no paywall. :)
Which outfit of mine do you like the best?
Here’s all my links: feel free to follow me on all my socials
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I own a ton of plaid skirts. The last video is my current gaming setup. I feel so cool with two monitors >:)
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I’m not sure I’ll ever get my other account back but at this rate, I don’t really care either way.
I’m currently doing all the customs and will add extra to it for your continued patience. I should make a video so
sometime to show how adhd affects this
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Since my digestion issues have improved, I can finally get through customs. I didn’t forget anyone — I have a list of all the names due for a custom. To make up for the lateness, I will make the custom longer and add special add ons such as masturbation. Thank you for your patience. I deeply appreciate it. Thank you.
If you don’t decide to renew, please message me first. Thanks!
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Spam like my posts because every month I will have a raffle. The prize of last month was the $75 GGG video. So, there are free ways to win content. 💕
Unfortunately I got unfairly banned on tiktok so I had to make a new account. I filed an appeal so let’s hope it gets accepted. Please follow my new tiktok account I made yesterday. Don’t spam like on tiktok because that gets you shadow banned or something.
www.tiktok.com/@katarinaishii99
Instagram.com/Katarinaishii
Join my discord server pretty please.
https://discord.gg/XeyJRStd
I made my writing on depression into an artsy video. The good news is that my supplements have been continuing to work and so my digestion is doing a whole lot better. Sorry if I’m a bit too depressing. I prioritize authenticity in my onlyfans page even if it means expressing some uncomfortable truths about my life. Even as someone on the spectrum, I never felt “masking” (hiding autistic symptoms or behavior in trying to appear neuro typical) benefited me; if anything, it made me stand out even more somehow. Plus, most people on the spectrum hate lying. I don’t really see any point in lying to people (except my parents — what they don’t know can’t hurt them). Being honest does not mean I say everything I feel without a filter or that I don’t omit personal details. I talk about my depression openly in the same way I don’t hide my self-harm scars — they’re just a deeply embedded part of my life, no use hiding them or pretending they’re not there.
Hope you all can support me on twitch; I will try to stream regularly. Thank you to those who have made it to my twitch streams. I appreciate it so much. Hope you can make it to more of my streams!
So far I’ve been playing Risk of Rain II, Civilization VI, and Civilization VI. For those who actively watch twitch streamers: what makes a streamer entertaining? What do you enjoy about a stream? What are some advice you can give to someone who wants to potentially get into twitch? I’m a bit nervous because the market seems overly saturated. On the other hand, onlyfans I thought to be a over-saturated market as well but I’m doing fine on here, so who knows what could happen.
https://m.twitch.tv/katarinaishii
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🌟 Tip $20 if you want some anal content with an anal plug and I may try it. ❤️
The fundraiser is for a mirror like this so I can take photos like these at home. I was making content with new BG partner so hope I can have regular BG content posted for you all. ❤️ Will try to post today.
🌎 Join my discord sever plz
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If you haven’t yet, make a discord and join my server!
https://discord.gg/JWZ34Q7m
(Keep spam liking my posts because I’ll choose two people at the end of the month raffle)
The first one was from when I was a t e e n a g e r and the second was when I was in my twenties. I’ve been fairly consistent in my personality apparently.
Hi! Subscribers get gaming privileges when I get my PC parts!
Steam ID: 76561198384838544
Roblox: iamnorman98
Join my discord server pretty please ❤️
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I took my kitten out for a walk in the stroller. Success because he loved it. ❤️
Sorry I raised the price to my normal price because it wasn’t actually doing anything. I still was losing subs at a faster rate than gaining and I’m losing money so sorry. I haven’t paid my rent this month and life sucks. I still haven’t went number two in a month. I want to shoot myself in the head but I can’t even do that. Maybe one day I will.
I made a discord server plz join 🥺 https://discord.gg/JWZ34Q7m
Guess which is mine. I prefer the five factors in terms of accuracy though. I got the same things from the almost same percentage from age 14 to my current age. I have been so damn consistent in my personality.
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test
Feel free to take it and tell me what you got :D
I’ll send winners a cute video later. (Btw If you want me to be completely disgusting I can, but im going to the hospital today for the prolonged medical issue that I’ve been struggling with. Hence delays in customs. I am honestly absolutely disgusted by how I look atm due to this medical issue. If you knew what it was you would agree trust me… if you want to know what it is, ask at your own risk…)
I’m wearing these exact same pants 12 y r s later… I don’t know why people find it hard to imagine themselves talking to people a bit y o u n g e r than them. I have been fairly consistent in terms of my personality from my t e e n years to mid adulthood. The main thing that changed was I became less pretentious and more open minded. It’s probably not surprising to find out that I had a high opinion of my intelligence growing up. As I aged, I learned there are many different ways of being intelligent and that you can learn from anyone. One thing I would tell my y o u n g e r self: if you think you’re depressed now, imagine how much worse life gets as you get older. Enjoy yourself more. I could be telling myself this now too but damn, I’m not enlightened enough to. Haha.
Has anyone taken the five factors or Meyers Briggs? Which did you guys get? (Personality assessments)
💕 Tip $5 if you like these types of lingerie. Which do you prefer?
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Taking a walk but will get to customs tonight.
Someone tried to say that a woman’s value decreases as she ages as a man’s value increases when he ages. Says who? They tried to parade it off as objective fact supported by scientific data. Well, says who then? Who defines women and men’s value? Not evolution — evolution only tells us who survives and reproduces — it doesn’t assign value other than reproduction and survival rate. It’s society that dictates women and men’s value. Women aren’t inherently decreasing in value as they age, it’s society that tells us this.
Sure, we can say men evolved to prefer youthful features but that preference doesn’t dictate a woman’s value. In evolutionary terms, women are actually more valuable than men because they have wombs and the capacity to bring life into the world. We evolved from mainly our female ancestors; much of the men of our past were evolutionary dead ends who failed to survive and reproduce.
I hate sexist misogynistic language disguised as “science”. This narrative that women lose their value as their age is the reason women are often hostile toward each other, prevents them from working together. This book I read called Beauty Sickness really explains well how this fixation on physical appearance is unfortunately unavoidable — even if you grew up in a household which praised only your achievements, didn’t care about how you dressed or presented yourself, you still are f o r c e d to exist in the world where your value as a person hinges on how pretty you are. If you ever make fun of a woman for getting plastic surgery or editing her photos, think about the society that makes her feel she must do this.
I hate people trying to make me feel bad about myself for doing something as natural as aging. Is it really such an insult to grow and develop as a human? Should we just off ourselves after 25 because we’re pretty much useless at that point? I mean, I technically have already hit the age where they claim women “hit the wall” and I think I’m doing just fine.
So I will be on my flight all day pretty much but will arrive in New York at 10:30pm (22:30pm). I will definitely get all my customs set up for this coming week as well. Thank you for your patience. If you have a custom waiting for me, I can give you a discount on the full GGG video so let me know (45 min long). As you can see I lowered the price, I didn’t feel I was putting enough BG content to justify the current price. I hope that the new price helps people who are more reluctant about renewing to continue to renew and support my page.
I bought the parts for my PC so I’d like to start up twitch! Maybe a discord server even?
https://www.twitch.tv/katarinaishii
Tips are appreciated but you need not tip to make me feel appreciated; your likes are sufficient. I’m slowly feeling better; your comments and support is immensely appreciated. When I’m back in New York I can go back to my schedule of posting multiple times a day, doing customs, etc. I may have to go to the doctor about my digestive issues though. It’s been pretty bad actually (so no anal sorry).
If you ever feel you are a simp, remember I bought a guy all these games just for him to ignore me completely. Never feel you simp too hard because if anything, I’m way worse. (I’m actually trying to make a joke about how pathetic I am but I hope it makes you feel better and less pathetic).
Share a moment you simped too hard and felt dumb.
I am getting better. I am not going to focus on subscriber count more, just take it easy, won’t put huge discounts. I leave tomorrow back to New York so I hope it can go back to normal somewhat.
I’m still not feeling better but I’ll try to respond to some messages. I’m sorry — it’s been a hard month but I have content set up so I’ll have stuff posted on my page. Thanks
What I’m not going to do anymore is give discounts to expired or new subscribers. That’s it. I’m not really advertising on Reddit anymore. I deleted all my NSFW posts on there.
I’m depressed so these are all in a queue. I probably won’t be looking at this right now because I just feel terrible.
The lack of BG content for the month is not because I implemented PPV. It’s because my BG partner has been frankly unreliable in sending me the content of we made; hence me finding a new BG partner when I return. Also, it’s the holidays and I’m not going to fuck someone in the room next to where my parents sleep. My dad is 70 and on dialysis and I opted for staying a few extra days because I wanted to spend time with my family. I’m sorry my subscription isn’t providing you the value you believe it should and other creators provide more for what you pay — you know what? Then go subscribe to them because I don’t need your business and don’t want such an entitled person as a subscriber. I’m sorry my nudes look the same, but that’s how I’m comfortable presenting my body and you’re not entitled to every angle of me just because you pay a monthly subscription price. I try my best to give you all what you want but I have to also do what makes me feel comfortable. So here’s my shitty nudes that look the same but I have severe IBS and chronic constipation so can you imagine how bloated my stomach looks on a person who sometimes shits twice a month? If I had a healthy body image you get i will be posting my body on several angles but I don’t. I hate my body. I didn’t watch the GGG video because I hate my body and I knew I would be disgusted by it. I wouldn’t make BG PPV. The only thing I make PPV are things that make me uncomfortable doing on camera such as Pusey spread photos and masturbation videos. I don’t normally do them and that’s why it’s PPV. If you’re unhappy with what you get, do a charge back. If you’re unhappy because I’m not giving you the value from this subscription, then fucking unsubscribe.
I’m tempted to lower my price since I haven’t been putting out regular BG content and have implemented PPV. PPV helps me feel appreciated. No one tips on the videos I give for free. That’s just it.
