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Good morning! Another day in this brutal war has passed and ..

Good morning! Another day in this brutal war has passed and yet another is coming but we are not falling! We are not giving up! We will resist and we will win even if this costs our lifes! We will live in a free democratic country! Slava Ukraini!!!! 🇺🇦💪

2022-03-18 07:41:32 +0000 UTC View Post

An amazing member of the community drew me and will make me ..

An amazing member of the community drew me and will make me the main character of a game he is desiging! Unbelievable! Thank you so much Sean! Please support Sean with a like if you don't mind! ❤️

2022-03-09 21:41:06 +0000 UTC View Post

Hey amazing people! I need your advice! So I just saw a comm..

Hey amazing people! I need your advice! So I just saw a comment on Reddit where someone commented on a post where I am saying 'fuck Putin'. Maybe that's not the most important but his general idea is that I am 'using the crisis to promote subscriptions to her profile'. I will not deny that the war has brought more attention to me but did I start the war? Should I blame myself that I am Ukrainian? Should I stop posting on Reddit at all? I know that if I do I will stop earning... Yes I mentioned the war in posts but this is THE TOPIC and I am in Ukraine and Ukrainian and I thought it is appropriate and thematic. In no way have I made any jokes, underestimations or desecrations with the situation. Those of you who know me know very well how sad, harmed and devastated I am. My Reddit posts do not present a real picture of how I feel (with the exception of a few) but rather aim to fit the topic of a particular subreddit and since I am an adult model and have done that before the war then obviously I have to fit those topics when posting there. Otherwise I get not upvotes, no visibility and consequently no subscribers here. If you wonder why I need subscribers here then I have to tell you that usually on OF the turnover is quite high. Many guys in a horny mood see a girl on Reddit then maybe subscribe to OF, 'use the content' and then leave and do not return. Of course there are many who stay and if you are reading this you are one of them which I am greatly appreciative for! But to keep supporting myself I need to constantly promote and should I stop promoting because it is a war here? Well my opinion is that I even have to promote more because I have no other job alternative, no real vision for a future, 4 months old baby so I need to save for those rainy days and I don't see the rain stopping soon. Even if the war is over tomorrow my country is still decimated, if I move to another country I don't speak the language there and will not be able to find a job (plus I have the baby). And I may need a job to even open a bank account and get some resident status. If I get a refugee status then I need to stay in camps and not be able to make content. So the situation is complicated and the most viable solution for me is to keep promoting, keep getting tips and keep saving so I have enough for the next one year at least. This is my opinion and I thought a lot about it. But your advice will be really really appreciated! Thank you for taking the time to read this! ❤️

2022-03-09 08:00:32 +0000 UTC View Post

On the positive side, today I met Maria, a lovely girl from ..

On the positive side, today I met Maria, a lovely girl from the village who works in a small dairy farm that her parents have, we became friends and went for a walk in nature which was sooo cleansing of my mind and body, and hopefully hers! 🧘‍♀️

2022-03-08 21:53:06 +0000 UTC View Post

Thank you all for the genuine wishes about international wom..

Thank you all for the genuine wishes about international womans day today, I am again really grateful to have you all here in this time! ❤️ Now time to share with you what's going on in my life, I really started to feel that my OnlyFans page is turning into a diary which is quite engaging for me and also a great opportunity to structure my thoughts and experiences so that it all makes sense now or later when I read it. Sadly my brother and mom have decided to cross to Poland and potentially go to the Netherlands where my mom has a close friend who will help her with finding work at least for the duriation of the war. Who knows if we can live normally again here in Ukraine...My brother is just 9 y.o. and he will have to start school there, no idea if there are Ukrainian schools, might be a better option for the first few months until he learns some Dutch. Their movinf makes me extremely unhappy because I am very close with both of them and I will be left here with my sister and her husband and their 7 y.o. kid. You may wonder why I am sad with them? I love my sister but she is a total mess, very chaotic, undisciplined and even a little bit egocentric. In our last few days in Kiev she called me every day complaining that they are in a heavy bombing area and I accepted her and her family to stay with us in the basement. Helped with food and all the other necessities which I am totally fine with. What makes me really angry is that her little kid is very rude, undisciplined and they let him like that whithout reprimands and even remarks. If it was just me on my own I was going to shut myself in a room or just leave but I am with a little baby that requires calm environment and nourishment, physical and emotional. I can even see that her little one does everything on purpose and in spite of my remarks, runs in all rooms, pushes the baby crib, plays cartoons loud and Alyona does not say a single word... Now the cottage owner asked for an additional payment because when we booked we really didn't want them here, they came a day later and we hoped it will be temporary...But the story becomes even more interesting, she and her husband decided they want to drink vodka in a time when all men are fighting and all women are volunteers and when alcohol is even forbidden! They want to drink vodka and make bbq 🤦‍♀️ Am I dreaming I ask myself?? And the crazy ones even found an old lady in the village who sold them vodka... I cry every hour because of them and the stress they cause but at the same time their presence makes me feel physically protected. I don't want to leave Ukraine because I want to continue helping in the war effort and my kid's father is in Ukraine and I know that his motivation will wane if he learns the baby left the country. Of course if bombing starts here I may be force d to leave but for now being in the resistance give me so much meaning and motivation! 🇺🇦💪 Sorry for the long writing and thank you if you read till the end! I needed to share that and take it out, hope I did not burden your mind! ❤️

2022-03-08 15:40:37 +0000 UTC View Post

Escaped!! My mom and brother are on the train and my preciou..

Escaped!! My mom and brother are on the train and my precious baby and myself are in a taxi, all heading west! Wish us luck and if we arrive safe I will let you all know! Love you all and may God bless you! ❤️

2022-03-04 20:07:34 +0000 UTC View Post

Good people! The risk of us losing our lives becoming greate..

Good people! The risk of us losing our lives becoming greater by the passing of every minute...bombs are already ruining nearby houses and there is absolutely no guarantee that ours won't be destroyed any moment...Given those circumstances I have made the decision to flee to the western part of Ukraine which is currently a little safer...Found some family that will accommodate me and just waiting for a final confirmation...Everything still sounds like we are in a movie, in a tragedy, in a sad novel but I am also appreciating life like never before...I have a little 4 months old baby and she is my ultimate priority and I feel I cannot be helpful here anymore with all that stress...In the West right now are most of Ukraine's woman, working in the logistical side of our army and population - foods, clothes, organizing foreign aid, blogging and allocating resources, everything, everything that is not related to direct fighting but I still think it is fighting of some sort...So if I don't have to hide from bombs every minute I will be more calm and able to contribute to our fight for freedom from the occupiers! I will keep you updated on every move I make and I am so grateful for your non stop moral and financial support. It is the most unexpected and unknown phase of my life, I have no idea what I will do, no certainty at all, I may have to rebuild my life from scratch even in another country...Thank you again for your financial support, it is much necessary now, at moments I feel bad that I am not giving anything in return other than some porn videos but the respect and understanding has been just amazing! If you can, please continue to contribute because I will probably need money to start paying rent, buy everything needed for my daughter again (cannot take anything with me, trains are packed and I cannot carry anything physically it is impossible) and help my parents who won't be able to work anymore... Again, thank you so much and I just want to say how much I love you all and humanity as a whole! Goodness exists and it will prevail! ❤️

2022-03-04 13:34:14 +0000 UTC View Post

A girl who we gave food and other provisions made a portrait..

A girl who we gave food and other provisions made a portrait of me...Not sure whether to cry or to let myself feel joy, maybe both...❤️

2022-03-03 16:19:44 +0000 UTC View Post

There are no baby food mixtures in stores anymore... There'..

There are no baby food mixtures in stores anymore... There's nothing as you can see.. We only have enough mixtures for a month and then critical situation will come What we will eat, also no idea... Little water Nothing is brought here... I hope the Russians show some solidarity and open green corridors for food otherwise a humanitarian crisis will happen...

2022-03-01 10:16:14 +0000 UTC View Post

At night at 02:00 there was an explosion, at 03:40 a drone w..

At night at 02:00 there was an explosion, at 03:40 a drone was shot down, at 5:30 three explosions, from 5:00 to 6:00 shootings... At 8:00 I ran to the store It opens at 9:00, long queues Weather is 1 degree celsium, freezing - in stores (no meat, no water, no milk, no vermicelli,) they said there would be no delivery. - managed to buy 1 kg of sausage Half a kilo went to the soldiers for sandwiches, honestly I would give them all and stay hungry... Now from 8:00 to 14:00 it's quiet, why? Peace negotiations in Belaru) during their negotiations they do not have the right to launch missiles, helicopters, fighters from the territory of Belarus, but Russia starts to shoot from its territory, already killing civilians in Khrakiv Do we believe that everything will stop? No! We want it to stop but the madman will not accept defeat...So we have no idea what follows...

2022-02-28 13:00:08 +0000 UTC View Post